Don’t Know Much

  Sound the ‘cheese’ alarm, right? Aaron Neville and Linda Rondstadt pairing up for a sappy ’80s duet. But, tonight in the car, as it came up on my iPod (yes, I have it on my iTunes- one of several of the “Best of the Duets” of the ’80s) it held such a different meaning for me. It was like an affirmation from this morning and a sweet simple reminder.

  This morning, as I drove in to work, I was thinking of how much I’ve just felt as though I’m really struggling… and have for some time now. Struggling to find God. Struggling to hear. Struggling to find peace. Struggling to have faith.

  And that’s when it occured to me. Like a small still voice telling me “You keep fighting so hard to ‘find your faith’, when you’ve never really lost it. Quit beating yourself up. If you still believe, you’ve got faith enough. Faith of a mustard seed… can you say you have at least that? You wouldn’t be struggling if you didn’t have any faith at all. Just the mere desire is faith in and of itself.”

 Such a comfort as I tend to struggle so in vain! So many times, I focus so much on the feelings – or rather lack thereof – that I get wrapped up in that and feel as though I haven’t any faith at all. When, if I would just turn my eyes toward Him, I would find those feelings of undeniable faith once again.

  I’m reminded of something I read by Sheila Walsh some time back: “Use the faith you have. Don’t search for great faith, but it you love Me, use what is in you.”

 You don’t have to know it all. You don’t even have to ‘feel it’. All He asks is that you show up before Him with a willing heart and know that you love Him. And that is basically, all there is to know.

Look at this face
I know the years are showin’
Look at this life
I still don’t know where it’s goin’
~
I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be All I need to know
~
Look at these eyes
They never seen what mattered
Look at these dreams
So beaten and so battered
~
I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know
~
So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much I’ve never broken through
~
And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth I’ve ever known
Is me and you
~
Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation
~
I don’t know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know
~
I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be All I need to know
 ~
I don’t know much
But I know I love you
That may be
All there is to know
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  1. Thanks for sharing your struggles. We all have them, and while it’s no consolation that others are struggling there is comfort in knowing we are not alone.

  2. So, true, Hope… thanks!
    LOVE your blog, by the way. I think yours is the one I’ve actually tried to comment on before, but it wouldn’t let me for some weird reason?? But, keep up the great writing!


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